Jeff Ruemeli: Keep your young girls far from this man

I hate to further undo slander except in this case I can attest that most is true. I do not know who posted this but have known this guy a very long time and have sat idly by watching as he did terrible things to people who deserved better. He had a girlfriend of about 15 years. During that time he cheated on her incessantly. Even while she was pregnant waiting I’m another state for him, he continued an affair with a coworker at a bar he worked at. Bringing their sexual affair into the empty apartment he shared with his pregnant girlfriend and into their bed in her absence. When he arrived here in the same state he began an affair with a 14 year old girl. Hired her as his assistant at work at Long Beach Island Foundation where under the excuse of being at work he perused this affair with this young girl over years. Meeting her everywhere, work, even his parents house when they would go on vacation. Leaving his actual girlfriend at home with their child. When the girlfriend caught on to what he was doing and wanted to separate him and this girl, now of age, targeted the ex girlfriend. Recording her calls secretly, filing false police reports against her, claiming she tweeted him and having her thrown in jail for it, twisting facts to make her look like a bad mother to take custody. What he and that monster he is with did to that woman was over the top and disturbing. They destroyed her life. Manipulated emails to say things that were not in the original emails and using it as evidence against her. What is most disturbing is the way they laugh about what they did to her. Somehow these two find slander, harassment, and abuse humorous. I have been there when they spoke about it, laughing about it as if using false facts to take a good mother away from her child is funny. He tweets on twitter about her having an abortion and how he left her lying ass. Their behavior is cruel and uncouth. And this monstrosity of a child Liz Koenig he pals around with now. Ever since she came into the picture he has changed. She is like one of those mean girls in high school who feels entitled to bully anyone to get what she wants. And he will do anything she tells him too. He is like a weak puppy with no mind of his own anymore. He sold his soul to that girl and her insane family. What they did to his most recent ex was over the top and wrong. Like she was so horrible he stayed with her for so many years. And we all know her well and know everything he says is bullshit but no one speaks up to him. Whatever twisted influence this girl and her family have over him it has not been good. I mean who would ever want to associate with someone willing to hurt another person in that way. How do you not realize it is only a matter of time till they do the same to you. The whole situation is sick. And when a middle aged man goes after an underage girl it is never a one time thing. He definitely has some perversions. I hear this Liz person isn’t even a girl. That she is one of those trans and that is why he is so whipped by his first relationship with a girl that has a penis. I don’t know. I keep my distance. The whole situation is troubling.

Came across this accidentally while searching the name of a road I once lived on.
I normally would not participate or add to something like this but while I have no idea who this is personally, i did spend a great amount of time juxtaposed physically to this guy. I would recognize his face but as a person is a complete stranger.
I just don’t want the wrong person getting fingered for this. There has been a great deal of character destruction, underestimating, and exceedingly low expectations in the quality of a person as being someone who would do any of this.
I do not support publicly humiliating a person. I do not support embarrassing and shaming a person by exposing and exploiting personal secrets or things they said in private. No person’s personal medical history should ever be posted on social media just in an effort to further hurt them. No one should be talked of or referred to in a demeaning or degrading manner. And to begin with any ever said allowed should be be fact and accurate. I don’t know if the things said are accurate here but I do know the person referenced is callous, cruel, is dishonorable, has no integrity, or dignity or an empathetic or compassionate bone in his body. Unless it is for himself. He will exploit anyone’s tragedy and even death to solicit money, sympathy and attention. And not a single word uttered can be relied on. Beyond that, in public, he is a wonderful person with a great personality, just don’t let him get you alone when angry. I do hope this is removed however because no one, absolutely no person should be treated with such disregard and disrespect. Exposing terrible people should be done ethically stating only facts. This crosses a line. Anyone exposing weak cowardly bottom feeders should have more couth than than trash that wronged them. As long as the wrong person isn’t given credit like in the past, I suppose what ot people do is their perogative. Whether they live their lives a a person of quality who treats others with fairness and decency isn’t for me to judge. Only shitty people talk about a person when they aren’t present, or revel in the tole they played targeting someone and destroying their life like it was a bonding opportunity and entertaining, or mock, judge or laugh about a person’s pain and misfortune. Thank god I don’t have any people like that in my life. I am not currently trapped, miserable, controlled and being sucked dry financially and energetically by a spoiled terrible decision I regret.
But I do hope this is removed. I would not wish this treatment on anyone.

Revised
Came across this accidentally while searching the name of a road I once lived on. I normally would not participate or add to something like this but while I have no idea who this is personally, i did spend a great amount of time juxtaposed physically to this guy. I would recognize his face but as a person is a complete stranger. I just don’t want the wrong person getting fingered for this. There has been a great deal of character destruction, underestimating, and exceedingly low expectations in the quality of a person as being someone who would do any of this. I do not support publicly humiliating a person. I do not support embarrassing and shaming a person by exposing and exploiting personal secrets or things they said in private. No person’s personal medical history should ever be posted on social media just in an effort to further hurt them. No one should be talked of or referred to in a demeaning or degrading manner. And to begin with anything ever said allowed should be be fact and accurate. I don’t know if the things said are accurate here but I do know the person referenced is callous, cruel, is dishonorable, has no integrity, or dignity or an empathetic or compassionate bone in his body. Unless it is for himself. He will exploit anyone’s tragedy and even death to solicit money, sympathy and attention. And not a single word uttered can be relied on. Beyond that, in public, he is a wonderful person with a great personality, except for the extreme anger in private.
I do hope this is removed however because no one, absolutely no person should be treated with such disregard and disrespect. Exposing terrible people should be done ethically stating only facts. This crosses a line. Anyone exposing weak cowardly bottom feeders should have more couth than than the trash that wronged them. As long as the wrong person isn’t given credit for like what has happened in the past, I suppose what other people do is their perogative. Whether they live their lives as a person of quality who treats others with fairness and decency isn’t for me to judge. Only shitty people talk about a person when they aren’t present, or revel in the role they played targeting someone and destroying their life like it was a bonding opportunity and entertaining, or to mock, judge or laugh about a person’s pain and misfortune. Thank god I don’t have any people like that in my life. I am not currently trapped, miserable, controlled arguing and being sucked dry financially and energetically by a spoiled terrible decision I regret. But I do hope this is removed. I would not wish this treatment on anyone. Even a person who would be cruel enough to lie to everyone about their history with a person who loved them thoroughly and unconditionally despite being cheated on incessantly even when pregnant and deceived about and used as a scapegoat constantly like when the rent or bills could not be paid because all that money was secretly going to pay for the movies, dinners out, concerts ect. to court someone else and a relationship that everyone else knew about and he perused in shameful ways despite the family at home waiting and why the reason he never allowed the girlfriend who was in the dark and extremely dumb to be a part of her own family and to accompany him but told her she was unwelcome and a drag to be around and blamed her for not helping him financially when he had to borrow money from his parents because he was spoiling someone else and claiming to just not make enough, and even with all that ugly known was still loved, and was never embarrassed by being confronted about all that truth and all the affair over the years and constant lies and was given absolute privacy and the right to have his own life and was respected, never prying or being snooped on, never being hurt with the truth that legally the mother had full custody from the birth of their child but she never used it to hurt him or deprive him the right to be a parent but instead let him believe he had those rights legally already unlike what he is doing right now to his own child and the mother having used terrible endless bold face lies to slander and discredit the mother into submission among other illegal acts used to destroy her life and block her out and cut off their communication which no one with a heart would do to another parent I mean how would this person feel if his mother had been ripped from him or if someone ripped him child from him, wouldn’t do that to a child if they loved the child because nothing could be more damaging or painful to either, there is really nothing crueler than separating a loving devoted mother who wants to be with her child and is in constant pain and at a loss without her child, even after being cared for and praised constantly, and accepted and loved for both the rotten and wonderful in him for life and the one person he never ever had to lie to and ghe only person he could always be himself with, and yet he is twisting the truth of their relationship in effort to escape responsibility and culpability and claims to being duped into the relationship for 14 years Because he isnt an adult who has a choice and is the victim of someone who loved him and trusted him so blindly she believed in him, even when feeling scared and alone always turning to him with her problems and thoughts as she had for over a decade confided in her him her best friend because who else would she run to except the only person she trusted and thought she was always safe with and pleading for him for someone to talk to about what was happening and going through it all alone just wishing and wondering why he didn’t care enough to respond or show up right up until the first time he lied to cause the start of major loss and damage in her life and her future and then the truth of how he really felt about her came to light, the truth of the resentment, disgust, anger, the aversion to her he was hiding in order to deceive her exactly 6 months later with plans to, dicard, and betray her collaborating with people that don’t even know her and who possessed the belief of being better than her, even though still he was everything to her and truthfully never betrayed or deceived him in return, never set out to intentionally hurt him by talking before thinking, being too honest, impulsive and being aloof and making stupid mistakes they regretted and waiting for the right time to tell someone something difficult is not the same as lying. And I mean imagine finding out the one thing you crucify this person for isn’t true or the whole story. That what you believe is inaccurate and only half the story because you never wanted to show up and hear the whole thing. That This person did not take your right to have another one away from you. That an appointment was made for a week later and the intent to discuss it was with you was there but then terrible things out of anyone’s control intervened. And to believe a person who never did anything on their own or without you would make a major decision without you like that? And had it never been said in conversation you weren’t ready for marriage or another one right before or for the constant absence on your part in the life of your current child and the mother who wasn’t sleeping for a week at a time and was struggling with post partum always terrified of losing you because you were always with someone else, that would have changed a lot, and not telling or discussing something so painful at the time, that for this person to not acknowledge it was easier then saying it out loud and not wanting to cause the same pain in the person you loved and instead keeping the knowledge to yourself seemed a mercy, but definitely never an intentional betrayal or lie.
But that’s all just a fictitious example
of someone who even still would not deserve to have this posted about them, no one could ever really be that cold and dismissive of another person let alone a long term live in partner who doesn’t understand any of it or how they could ever truly be believed to be a hateful hurtful person when they were so naive and stupid to what was really happening that they had no idea they were being targeted, hated, made fun if and laughed about or that their inability to function or paralysis they were experiencing completely at a loss and waiting on someone to give them attention and affection who was already gone and not wanting to believe or accept he was anything other than the person she thought he was incapable of lying cheating and being so incredibly dismissive and cruel. Even if it seemed like some kind of karma and someone getting back what it is they put out there, every person’s life has value and is worth saving. It is not for your past mistakes anyone should be judged. Like even after being wronged, it’s the person wanting to reconcile and make amends, the person who would like to just move forward and completely let all the past events go because it is all just immature drama that is beneath the person anyway. If they regret allowing their emotions to get the best of them and feel remorse for reacting in a way that they are ashamed of and can do better than. That none of it matters even enough to discuss, needing no explanations and wanting no answers, just wanting to be elevated above any and all pettiness and working together as adults for their child, that person is a quality person for letting go anger or hatred or any vengeful thoughts, and would be happy as just being a friend because yhat person’s presence in their life is missed. How amazing if there were two people who felt this way. Maybe the person named here could even be a person who feels this way too and is better than any of this. We don’t know. So none of this should be posted without evidence and proof. But that is just the opinion of who wrote this. And only this. And is all just fiction and conjecture.

Revised
I do hope this is removed however because no one, absolutely no person should be treated with such disregard and disrespect. Exposing terrible people should be done ethically stating only facts. This crosses a line. Anyone exposing weak cowardly bottom feeders should have more couth than than the trash that wronged them. As long as the wrong person isn’t given credit for like what has happened in the past, I suppose what other people do is their perogative. Whether they live their lives as a person of quality who treats others with fairness and decency isn’t for me to judge. Only shitty people talk about a person when they aren’t present, or revel in the role they played targeting someone and destroying their life like it was a bonding opportunity and entertaining, or to mock, judge or laugh about a person’s pain and misfortune. Thank god I don’t have any people like that in my life. I am not currently trapped, miserable, controlled arguing and being sucked dry financially and energetically by a spoiled terrible decision I regret. But I do hope this is removed. I would not wish this treatment on anyone. Even a person who would be cruel enough to lie to everyone about their history with a person who loved them thoroughly and unconditionally despite being cheated on incessantly even when pregnant and deceived about and used as a scapegoat constantly like when the rent or bills could not be paid because all that money was secretly going to pay for the movies, dinners out, concerts ect. to court someone else and a relationship that everyone else knew about and he perused in shameful ways despite the family at home waiting and why the reason he never allowed the girlfriend who was in the dark and extremely dumb to be a part of her own family and to accompany him but told her she was unwelcome and a drag to be around and blamed her for not helping him financially when he had to borrow money from his parents because he was spoiling someone else and claiming to just not make enough, and even with all that ugly known was still loved, and was never embarrassed by being confronted about all that truth and all the affair over the years and constant lies and was given absolute privacy and the right to have his own life and was respected, never prying or being snooped on, never being hurt with the truth that legally the mother had full custody from the birth of their child but she never used it to hurt him or deprive him the right to be a parent but instead let him believe he had those rights legally already unlike what he is doing right now to his own child and the mother having used terrible endless bold face lies to slander and discredit the mother into submission among other illegal acts used to destroy her life and block her out and cut off their communication which no one with a heart would do to another parent I mean how would this person feel if his mother had been ripped from him or if someone ripped him child from him, wouldn’t do that to a child if they loved the child because nothing could be more damaging or painful to either, there is really nothing crueler than separating a loving devoted mother who wants to be with her child and is in constant pain and at a loss without her child, even after being cared for and praised constantly, and accepted and loved for both the rotten and wonderful in him for life and the one person he never ever had to lie to and ghe only person he could always be himself with, and yet he is twisting the truth of their relationship in effort to escape responsibility and culpability and claims to being duped into the relationship for 14 years Because he isnt an adult who has a choice and is the victim of someone who loved him and trusted him so blindly she believed in him, even when feeling scared and alone always turning to him with her problems and thoughts as she had for over a decade confided in her him her best friend because who else would she run to except the only person she trusted and thought she was always safe with and pleading for him for someone to talk to about what was happening and going through it all alone just wishing and wondering why he didn’t care enough to respond or show up right up until the first time he lied to cause the start of major loss and damage in her life and her future and then the truth of how he really felt about her came to light, the truth of the resentment, disgust, anger, the aversion to her he was hiding in order to deceive her exactly 6 months later with plans to, dicard, and betray her collaborating with people that don’t even know her and who possessed the belief of being better than her, even though still he was everything to her and truthfully never betrayed or deceived him in return, never set out to intentionally hurt him by talking before thinking, being too honest, impulsive and being aloof and making stupid mistakes they regretted and waiting for the right time to tell someone something difficult is not the same as lying. And I mean imagine finding out the one thing you crucify this person for isn’t true or the whole story. That what you believe is inaccurate and only half the story because you never wanted to show up and hear the whole thing. That This person did not take your right to have another one away from you. That an appointment was made for a week later and the intent to discuss it was with you was there but then terrible things out of anyone’s control intervened. And to believe a person who never did anything on their own or without you would make a major decision without you like that? And had it never been said in conversation you weren’t ready for marriage or another one right before or for the constant absence on your part in the life of your current child and the mother who wasn’t sleeping for a week at a time and was struggling with post partum always terrified of losing you because you were always with someone else, that would have changed a lot, and not telling or discussing something so painful at the time, that for this person to not acknowledge it was easier then saying it out loud and not wanting to cause the same pain in the person you loved and instead keeping the knowledge to yourself seemed a mercy, but definitely never an intentional betrayal or lie.
But that’s all just a fictitious example
of someone who even still would not deserve to have this posted about them, no one could ever really be that cold and dismissive of another person let alone a long term live in partner who doesn’t understand any of it or how they could ever truly be believed to be a hateful hurtful person when they were so naive and stupid to what was really happening that they had no idea they were being targeted, hated, made fun if and laughed about or that their inability to function or paralysis they were experiencing completely at a loss and waiting on someone to give them attention and affection who was already gone and not wanting to believe or accept he was anything other than the person she thought he was incapable of lying cheating and being so incredibly dismissive and cruel. Even if it seemed like some kind of karma and someone getting back what it is they put out there, every person’s life has value and is worth saving. It is not for your past mistakes anyone should be judged. Like even after being wronged, it’s the person wanting to reconcile and make amends, the person who would like to just move forward and completely let all the past events go because it is all just immature drama that is beneath the person anyway. If they regret allowing their emotions to get the best of them and feel remorse for reacting in a way that they are ashamed of and can do better than. That none of it matters even enough to discuss, needing no explanations and wanting no answers, just wanting to be elevated above any and all pettiness and working together as adults for their child, that person is a quality person for letting go anger or hatred or any vengeful thoughts, and would be happy as just being a friend because yhat person’s presence in their life is missed. How amazing if there were two people who felt this way. Maybe the person named here could even be a person who feels this way too and is better than any of this. We don’t know. So none of this should be posted without evidence and proof. But that is just the opinion of who wrote this. And only this. And is all just fiction and conjecture.

This is terrible. People who see this should ignore it. I am probably the only person who knows the actual truth about who this person really is. And even though I do not have one single positive thing to say about him, I mean there has to be a line exposing people like this. I actually really like Jeff. If I am being honest I absolutely love him. I enjoy spending time with him. I have always been and I am still extremely attracted to him physically. There must be something really amazing about him because he is the only person in this world that I have allowed into my that. He is the only person I have ever trusted. Trusted him through and through. My world revolved around him. He was my best friend and the person I turned to for everything. He was the one person I took a chance on. That was a really bad decision. Never was I most important in his life, being his supposed “future wife” and child’s mother, everyone else came first. That and tons of things should have made me walk away. He Constantly had affairs with coworkers, fellow students, whoever flattered him with enough attention. He is unfaithful constantly, the worst times were 2011, summer 2012, while packing our things and I was pregnant he used our empty apartment, and the inappropriate relationship he pursued right after we were reunited and I was still pregnant. He does lie incessantly, is extremely 2 faced, will make fun of you and talk about you behind your back as if better than you, and can’t be trusted with private information or secrets. I did not know any the lying to be honest, just some of the cheating. But I still loved him for life, and was committed, loyal, & devoted..Getting over him was like trying to acclimate to losing limb. I pretty much had to shut inside down to get past it. What he did to me after separating is just disturbing and traumatic. The truth of everything was like running into a brick wall. Suddenly the only person that has ever mattered to me, the only person I believed actually loved me and cared for me, I mean I revered this guy as being driven by integrity and stringent morals never ever lying, always faithful, kind, caring, empathetic, logical and rational, fair, one of a kind, someone who’s word meant something, turned out he was just a dime a dozen, like so many others who are materialistic, shallow, petty, selfish, entitled, immature, dishonest, ect. Someone capable of doing undeserving terrible with no remorse, or guilt. But I am over the whole thing honestly, I feel nothing anymore and just wish him well. I really hope he is happy with his choices and everything is what he hoped it would be. Collaborating with some stranger to hate on me, and target me is so disappointing. I really believed him to be more of a mature adult. This guy would take out his the girl he was with in the last years together to the movies, dinners, concerts, ect. Spending rent and bill money on her. Than when he couldn’t pay the bills or rent he would borrow from his folks and tell them he didn’t make enough money. That it was all my fault. No one knows how he manipulates seriously everyone around him for money or whatever he needs. If he helps you believe me it’s not selfless. One time I paid for my own plane ticket when him and I flew home. Years later his mom mentions reimbursing me. I had no clue what she was talking about. Turned out they gave him the money, like $300 , to reimburse me the cost if the ticket but he just pocketed it and never told me. But must have claimed he gave it to me because they thought i got the money. I myst have seemed so ungrateful never saying thank you to them but he didn’t care. After separating I was lonelier, afraid, confused, going through so much alone. Al I wanted was to talk to him about, the only person I ever confided in for 14, years. I thought I could just dump how I felt to him. I thought I could tell him anything. He was my best friend for so long. Welll he treated me like I was suddenly a stranger. Like I was some lunatic obsessively messaging him talking crazy. I have never been made to feel so alone, unwanted, humiliated, or more worthless. That he underestimated me and my character by believing I did and said things I never would. By telling people I did and said things I never did and slandering me. Nobody has ever or will ever hurt me more. This guy seriously eviscerated me stem to sternum and it, the loss and grief changed me so drastically it defines me now.
I was always in that relationship alone, in love with someone I wanted to believe in, someone who used me as a scapegoat, and placed absolutely no value on me or my life. Someone who treated one like an annoyance he resented having to deal with, was disgusted by, and felt extremely gratified to be rid of and replacing. He really seemed giddy to know what he was doing and planning on doing to me and with who. I am so incredibly embarrassed I did not see it sooner, that I stayed somewhere so long where I was not wanted and had no idea. He made a huge fool out of me. Allowed a stranger to degrade me, mock and laugh at me the misfortune they intentionally caused. Not only did he allow someone to hurt me, but he helped. I had no idea the lies he was telling everyone about about what a horrible person I was. I was so very stupid. I should have him left long ago. But I refused to believe he wasn’t this honest and amazing person. Everything he has done to me, the way he treated me, deceived me, betrayed me, i let him. I wanted to make things work so much I was willing to endure anything.
Regardless I myself regret losing him in my life. He mattered to me and would be happy to even be friends. To make ammends would be nice. To reconcile. To just forgive and move forward. The past means nothing to me. I’m not holding on to it. He is still a good person im some ways and I miss his presence in my life. I have no questions. Need no answers. No explanations. Not even apologies. I still care in
And there is truth he doesn’t know about.
He doesn’t know the whole story about about me or that it needs happened.
He has no idea what he trapped himself under. I should hate him but I don’t. I made plenty of mistakes. Didn’t make enough of an effort. Didn’t step up enough as his partner.
I would fix things if I had the opportunity.
A romantic relationship would be impossible between us, but I would like to be friends.
At the friendship distance he is a very good person to know. Even like casual friends with benefits. Anything more is risky. But people change. Maybe he has too. Who knows.
Just as long as I am not blamed for the craziness above.
* who ever keeps sending me the link to this stop. I know who you are and that you want people to think this was me. I don’t have a typo issue anymore so that’s not going to work this time

This is terrible. People who see this should ignore it. I am probably the only person who knows the actual truth about who this person really is. And even though I do not have one single positive thing to say about him, I mean there has to be a line exposing people like this. I actually really like Jeff. If I am being honest I absolutely love him. I enjoy spending time with him. I have always been and I am still extremely attracted to him physically. There must be something really amazing about him because he is the only person in this world that I have allowed into my that. He is the only person I have ever trusted. Trusted him through and through. My world revolved around him. He was my best friend and the person I turned to for everything. He was the one person I took a chance on. That was a really bad decision. Never was I most important in his life, being his supposed “future wife” and child’s mother, everyone else came first. That and tons of things should have made me walk away. He Constantly had affairs with coworkers, fellow students, whoever flattered him with enough attention. He is unfaithful constantly, the worst times were 2011, summer 2012, while packing our things and I was pregnant he used our empty apartment, and the inappropriate relationship he pursued right after we were reunited and I was still pregnant. He does lie incessantly, is extremely 2 faced, will make fun of you and talk about you behind your back as if better than you, and can’t be trusted with private information or secrets. I did not know any the lying to be honest, just some of the cheating. But I still loved him for life, and was committed, loyal, & devoted..Getting over him was like trying to acclimate to losing limb. I pretty much had to shut inside down to get past it. What he did to me after separating is just disturbing and traumatic. The truth of everything was like running into a brick wall. Suddenly the only person that has ever mattered to me, the only person I believed actually loved me and cared for me, I mean I revered this guy as being driven by integrity and stringent morals never ever lying, always faithful, kind, caring, empathetic, logical and rational, fair, one of a kind, someone who’s word meant something, turned out he was just a dime a dozen, like so many others who are materialistic, shallow, petty, selfish, entitled, immature, dishonest, ect. Someone capable of doing undeserving terrible with no remorse, or guilt. But I am over the whole thing honestly, I feel nothing anymore and just wish him well. I really hope he is happy with his choices and everything is what he hoped it would be. Collaborating with some stranger to hate on me, and target me is so disappointing. I really believed him to be more of a mature adult. This guy would take out his the girl he was with in the last years together to the movies, dinners, concerts, ect. Spending rent and bill money on her. Than when he couldn’t pay the bills or rent he would borrow from his folks and tell them he didn’t make enough money. That it was all my fault. No one knows how he manipulates seriously everyone around him for money or whatever he needs. If he helps you believe me it’s not selfless. One time I paid for my own plane ticket when him and I flew home. Years later his mom mentions reimbursing me. I had no clue what she was talking about. Turned out they gave him the money, like $300 , to reimburse me the cost if the ticket but he just pocketed it and never told me. But must have claimed he gave it to me because they thought i got the money. I myst have seemed so ungrateful never saying thank you to them but he didn’t care. After separating I was lonelier, afraid, confused, going through so much alone. Al I wanted was to talk to him about, the only person I ever confided in for 14, years. I thought I could just dump how I felt to him. I thought I could tell him anything. He was my best friend for so long. Welll he treated me like I was suddenly a stranger. Like I was some lunatic obsessively messaging him talking crazy. I have never been made to feel so alone, unwanted, humiliated, or more worthless. That he underestimated me and my character by believing I did and said things I never would. By telling people I did and said things I never did and slandering me. Nobody has ever or will ever hurt me more. This guy seriously eviscerated me stem to sternum and it, the loss and grief changed me so drastically it defines me now.
I was always in that relationship alone, in love with someone I wanted to believe in, someone who used me as a scapegoat, and placed absolutely no value on me or my life. Someone who treated one like an annoyance he resented having to deal with, was disgusted by, and felt extremely gratified to be rid of and replacing. He really seemed giddy to know what he was doing and planning on doing to me and with who. I am so incredibly embarrassed I did not see it sooner, that I stayed somewhere so long where I was not wanted and had no idea. He made a huge fool out of me. Allowed a stranger to degrade me, mock and laugh at me the misfortune they intentionally caused. Not only did he allow someone to hurt me, but he helped. I had no idea the lies he was telling everyone about about what a horrible person I was. I was so very stupid. I should have him left long ago. But I refused to believe he wasn’t this honest and amazing person. Everything he has done to me, the way he treated me, deceived me, betrayed me, i let him. I wanted to make things work so much I was willing to endure anything.
Regardless I myself regret losing him in my life. He mattered to me and would be happy to even be friends. To make ammends would be nice. To reconcile. To just forgive and move forward. The past means nothing to me. I’m not holding on to it. He is still a good person im some ways and I miss his presence in my life. I have no questions. Need no answers. No explanations. Not even apologies. I still care in
And there is truth he doesn’t know about.
He doesn’t know the whole story about about me or that it needs happened.
He has no idea what he trapped himself under. I should hate him but I don’t. I made plenty of mistakes. Didn’t make enough of an effort. Didn’t step up enough as his partner.
I would fix things if I had the opportunity.
A romantic relationship would be impossible between us, but I would like to be friends.
At the friendship distance he is a very good person to know. Even like casual friends with benefits. Anything more is risky. But people change. Maybe he has too. Who knows.
Just as long as I am not blamed for the craziness above.
* who ever keeps sending me the link to this stop. I know who you are and that you want people to think this was me. I don’t have a typo issue anymore so that’s not going to work this time